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Monday, September 05, 2011

Down time

In life, there is bound to have a little bit of down time. Most of the time, I am happy and contented because I believe.

I believe that my hard work will get me somewhere in my career.

I belive that my family will not fall apart no matter what obstacle comes our way.

I believe that the man I love will love me back for who I am inside.

I believe my friends will stay true and never take advantage of me in any way just like I won't want to do the same to them.

I believe I will have a life that I can look back someday and smile with satisfaction that it has been a good journey.

and naively, I believe that Death will never pay a visit.

 

But there are times when my brain starts to think of the "what-ifs"...

And the most hated what-if I always have.... "what if I am wrong?"

And when this comes into my brain, I become doubtful of everything - the happiness that I have, the love that I get, the hope that I hold. Everything is just a facade, all too good to be true. The real, ugly truth is hidden from my unrealistic, positive perspective of life. My world may not be as perfect as it seems.

I start to think of the worst scenario - sometimes awful stories of others about detest, betrayal, jealousy etc. or purely my wild imagination and even to the extent... I believe that they will somehow happen. Just not yet.

Emo Monday.

Can someone please shut down the server in my brain and reboot it? Thanks.

 

 


Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Return


 

Coming back here.... after more than 1 year. Read some of my old posts.... blogging seemed so long ago.

Good to be back. *dusting here and there*

Why am I back? Fate, I will call it.

I don't think I can totally forget things/people/places/websites that are important. Temporarily abandoned, perhaps... but to erase it completely from my memory bank? Difficult. That's why my room is full of old junks that I have every reason to keep but no reason to throw.

Emotionally attached to things is my weakness.

 

 


Monday, June 28, 2010

For the 11th time....

Remember this blog entry  about my jiemei CV last December? 

 

For the 11th time, I was being called up to be a jiemei ("sister") for a wedding. Still doing it, still loving it... anytime for a dear friend.

Miss tango became Mrs Boo last Saturday. I always love to attend weddings of old friends, especially those whom you hold dear to your heart. Miss tango is the first in my jc gang to get hitched, breaking the curse of the gang as Miss Pek put it aptly. To me, Miss tango is always that sweet, bubbly JC girl who is popular with guys in school, hence it is a little overwhelming that she is finally settled down with such a doting hubby for good!

Before the wedding, the bride wrote out a list of promises that she would demand yearn from her hubby and my task was to design their love contract. Honestly, it was a great honour because I got to play a little role in their lifelong promises. At the same time, I was worried of ruining this important asset of their marriage.

Well, I did it with pride in the end. =)

Of all the ten promises, I love the last line: "I will always remember why I fell in love with her." Love, is and should be as simple as that. Yes, earning the dough is important (her money is her money, his money is her money) and household chores are painful (she cooks, he washs).... but this lifelong promise of remembering the love is the toughest of them all.

Marriage is a journey and the journey is not always a bed of roses. In the world of love, doubts constantly fill up our minds to an extent that one tends to complicate things and give up on love easily. But who can blame us? Humans are rational animals who like to compare with better options and pass judgement quickly. The lovey dovey spell may fade away and you probably see more flaws in each other through the years.  Whatever it is, never forget that first moment when both of you fell in love with each other because it will give you strength to believe that everything can be worked out. (Okay, sometimes things don't work out eventually and hearts are broken... but always cherish the beauty of the moment. It doesn't happen often to everyone.)

True love lasts forever and I am pretty sure that Mr and Mrs Boo will be a fine example of this statement. Cheers!!!

 

Sidetrack: My favourite columnist, Sumiko Tan is getting married at 46. Time to say goodbye to her funny articles of singlehood. I really wonder about her future articles in her column - hmm, how to be a good wife?

 

Oh, congrats to sue for giving birth today to Baby No.2 Raphael! Big kiss to little handsome!   (Times like this makes me wonder: WTH am I doing with my life? Okay, let's quickly move on from here. Ha~!)

 

 


Monday, May 17, 2010

Just a Calendar Girl

Calendar Girl by Stars

Lyrics:

If I am lost for a day,
try to find me
But if I don't come back,
then I won't look behind me
All of the things that I thought were so easy
Just got harder and harder each day

December is darkest and June is the light
but this empty bedroom
won't make anything right
While out on the landing
a friend I forgot to send home
Who waits up for me all through the night

Calendar girl who's in love with the world
Stay alive
Calendar Girl who's in love with the world
Stay alive

I dreamed I was dying as I so often do
And when I awoke I was sure it was true
I ran to the window; threw my head to the sky
And said whoever is up there
please don't let me die

But I can't live forever, I can't always be
One day I'll be sand on a beach by a sea
The pages keep turning
I'll mark off each day with a cross
And I'll laugh about all that we've lost

Calendar Girl who is lost to the world
Stay Alive
Calendar Girl who is lost to the world
Stay Alive

January,February,March,April,May I'm alive

June,July,August,September,October I'm alive

November,December, yeah all through the winter, I'm alive

I'm alive


Monday, May 03, 2010

Which is Worse?

Which is worse?

Knowing that you can't do it and fail the mission as predicted...

Or...

Knowing that you can do it and fail the mission least expected?

 

Either way, it sucks to be me today.



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